i despise

this is just to say
now
i despise

no more nostalgy,

no more sadness in too early evenings.

i despise

and throw away

all good memories

for the bad ones i retain

to enjoy my despise

to forget with angry sadness

and eat the bitter sweet revenge

and get fat

and grow old

and not wise

because,

you know,

it is you that i despise